Resolution and Forgiveness

Dear reader,

Have you ever wondered about something for a considerably long amount of time? Well, I’ve wondered about something in my life for the past 18 years. This issue has always been in the back of my mind, nagging at me. Someone wronged me for the longest time and wasn’t ready to come out and tell me. Finally, today, it has been resolved. This person finally admitted to what happened and asked for my forgiveness.

It quite literally feels like the biggest weight has been lifted off of my chest. I never thought that it would happen, especially in the way that it did! I have cried many nights over how this person has wronged me, but now I’m crying in happiness that this person has admitted that it was not easy for me to go through what had happened back then, admit to their mistakes, and ask for my forgiveness.

I’m not quite ready to say that I would forgive this person right now, but maybe I will in time… Only time itself will tell!




Keeping Up With Time

Dear reader,

Sorry it’s been a while since I’ve posted anything. There have been many moments of hustling over the time that I have been away. I’m about to take my exams in just a few days and I’m spending all my available time getting ready for them.

This year has been a varied mix of a sluggish scrape and a speeding bullet train, with some days feeling more of one way than another. During this year, I have been seriously reflecting on the concept of time. What to do with it, how fast or slow it travels, memories of the past, and what time holds in the future. As I reflect over my life so far, I can honestly say that time has been a great asset to me. It has allowed me to meet different people, many of whom are very special to me, and I have also been able to experience a lot – be it good, bad, or difficult – which is valuable to me.

However, one of the things that terrifies me about time is the change that it brings along with it. When I am in an environment that I am truly enjoying, be it a visit with a friend, a trip to different parts of Kenya, or just being in school (yes, I did just say that), I don’t want these experiences to end. Over this past half year, I have had to say a lot of goodbyes and come to grips with the finality that it holds. I still haven’t come to grips with any of it. To be honest, I don’t like saying goodbye at all, so I try to avoid it by instead saying “See you later”, even though there is probably no chance I will see that person or place ever again. Sometimes, I even start to cry when I realise that fact.

I honestly don’t know whether to be afraid or happy about time. With it brings new experiences, yes, but also with that comes changes that can be big and frightening. Some things that I have tried to do to keep as many memories as I can is to keep a file of anything important to me and I have promised myself that I will carry that file with me wherever I go to remember the past and never forget what time has been able to grant me, even if it is in fleeting moments.

If I were to offer one piece of advice to you, dear reader, it would be to treasure every waking second of the day. Even though it may be a bad day, treasure it, because you may never be with the people around you when you have those days ever again. Spend time with those you love, because time may come when you or them have to move away. When that time happens, don’t cram in time to be with them a week or two before they leave. Build up your memories with them every day and make the moments special.

Never forget where you came from.

Treasure every moment, for there will never be another one like it.


A Thank You Letter

Dear Miss Magnuson,

I would sincerely like to thank you for challenging me as much as you have. With the many different assignments that continued to press me further in my ways of thinking and allowing me to relate to many different events that seemed unrelated at first, you helped me greatly broaden my viewpoints. Throughout the year, with every experience, I have grown in a way that I would never have expected. If I could speak to my past self from 2 years ago who wasn’t confident in her writing, I would have recommended that she take that class!

Reflecting back on the year, I must admit, I was more than a little nervous. I was especially nervous about the blog posts and the realization that what I said would be on the Internet forever, even if I tried to delete it! However, my biggest feeling of nervousness turned into a feeling of joy whenever I wrote any of these posts. I found it more than just a post that I had to turn in for a grade every week. To me, these posts were a fun way to express myself in a medium that I had never thought of before.

Miss Magnuson, I would like to thank you so much for putting your faith in me and fighting for me to be in that class. I will be eternally grateful for that and it is something that I will never forget. It was so wonderful being in this class and throughout the year, it was a blast getting to discuss with you over different topics of varying difficulties. Your class period was one that I was always looking forward to because I knew that I would have a fun time while being able to learn relevant ideas and perspectives on issues at the same time. If I could take AP Lang over again, I would do so in a heartbeat! Thanks for making AP Lang a wonderful and fun experience for me!

Best regards and thanks for everything,


Tablets vs. Textbooks

Dear reader,

In school, at the beginning of the year, you were probably handed textbooks for many if not all of your classes. As you peered through them, have you groaned as you realize the weight that might be added to your backpack? Also taking a look at the text, have you wondered if there is a more engaging way to tackle the same material instead of relying on a textbook the whole time?

Using tablets in school is a possible solution to that problem. Not only are they light, they are also able to help the student engage more actively in the material by offering a more engaging method of learning. For example, if a student gets a brand-new textbook, they probably won’t want to mark it up for fear that they might have to pay for damages for writing or highlighting in the book. Using a tablet eliminates that risk, for the person can highlight as much as they want. It is their own device and they will be able to highlight as much text as they want on their own virtual textbook.


Sarah Wong on remarks that a study by the California Board of Education in 2004 states that the average high school student carries a bag with “about 16 to 20 pounds of textbooks.” Compare that to a tablet which weighs only a few pounds and can carry all of your textbooks and more. With an alternative which is more efficient and less back-breaking, tablets are a better alternative to carrying several textbooks home at the end of every school day.

Tablets are a more efficient way to carry all your material instead of textbooks because not only are they lighter, but they are also more engaging than regular textbooks. The material on the tablet can be marked up as much as is desired and can create a more personalized learning plan and experience with the text. Hopefully, in the future, we can have a personalized learning experience that is engaging and easier on our backs.


Entertainment as a Form of Ruin?

Dear reader,

Entertainment is all around us in this modern age. With YouTube videos, Facebook posts, and TV shows all around us, we have many things to keep us happy. However, that entertainment has a darker side to it, whether we realize it or not. Follow me down this rabbit hole and we’ll see what awaits us at the end.

With advertisements and other forms of entertainment blaring all around us, our eyes have a lot of attention-grabbing things to look at. The entertainment doesn’t only grab our attention to the point that we may end up spending hours upon hours watching. It may also affect our thinking process as well. Remember that the sole purpose of entertainment is to make people happy and make them believe what is being said. In other words, it wants us to believe what it is telling the viewer.

There is a dangerous aspect in that situation. If we just continue to accept what the TV or the computer screen or any other entertainment industry or medium is telling us, we won’t be able to think for ourselves and will instead become slaves of our own forms of entertainment. What we thought we had under control will instead control us.

So dear reader, I tell you this not to scare you off of your YouTube videos, social media accounts, or favorite TV series. My purpose in telling you this is to advise you to be careful of the amount of entertainment that is all around us. Take precautions not to become slaves of the entertainment, but to instead have it under control. One thing that I do is take away all forms of distraction when I’m doing work and make sure that I can’t hear them. Try some other techniques for yourself and see what works.


What is Jazz?

Dear reader,

Have you listened to jazz music recently? Did you like it? Is it your first time listening to it, or have you been listening to it for a long time?

My first experience with jazz was when I was about eleven or twelve when my piano teacher gave me an assignment to listen to a jazz artist. I was able to find a collection of Ella Fitzgerald’s best songs and once I listened to it, I loved it at once. I listened to it day in and day out, even when I was going to sleep. It was like a new world was opening right in front of me, and inviting me to explore more. As soon as that collection was listened to quite a few times, my dad offered to get some more CDs for me, to which I happily accepted.

When I was listening to CDs from about ten years ago, I always wondered if jazz ever survived to the modern era and what that sounded like. After a few years, through iTunes, I found out that there were more modern jazz artists as well. Curiosity led me to explore other artists like Sara Gazarek and Gretchen Parlato and I found them to be wonderful to listen and even dance to. It was then that I realized that jazz is more than just a genre of music. It is a timeless art that spans over 100 years and would continue to grow!

So dear reader, what do you think about jazz? I’ve told you my story, now start your own. If you listen, continue to listen and explore different artists. If you haven’t listened, why not start now? Try different artists both old and new and see which one(s) you like best. The choice is up to you

“Change is always happening. That’s one of the wonderful things about jazz music.” – Maynard Ferguson



Walt Whitman in Metaphors

If Walt was a color, he would be a rainbow because there are many different aspects that can be taken away from his poetry and his poetry often has a deeper sense of meaning.

If Walt was a food, he would be a salad. Whitman’s exploration about many different topics from exploring nature to city life to his personal experiences through poetry make him an interesting poet to read from.

If Walt was an animal, he would be a bird. He is able to retrieve aspects of an issue that may seem unrelated at first, but eventually turns out to be a beautiful and intricately complex nest of ideas.

If Walt was a season, he would be spring. His love of nature is present in many of his poems and he even talks about ordinary things in nature like the ocean and the forest as “miracles”. Spring is a season where the plants can begin to appear after the cold season of winter, and Whitman also took a new approach to poetry by seeing things from a new perspective.

If Walt was a day of the week, he would be Friday. The end of the week can be seen as freedom and a chance to relax. Whitman thinks that freedom is a very important aspect in poetry and the expression of that freedom is important as well.

If Walt was a word, he would be liberty. “The shallow consider liberty a release from all law, from every constraint. The wise man sees in it, on the contrary, the potent Law of Laws.”

If Walt was a season of life, he would be infancy because he has a great curiosity about everything, no matter its size or importance to others. He has even been quoted as saying “be curious, not judgmental”.

If Walt was a musical instrument, he would be a harp. In his poetry, he speaks about topics in a way that resonates with many people and is said in a gentle but understanding manner.

If Walt was a outdoors activity, he would be climbing up a mountain. His way of writing challenges you to think deeper than you expect and it is challenging to get to the point when you fully understand his point. However, once you do, you will be amazed at how far you have come.

If Walt was a natural phenomenon, he would be wind. He is able to go through topics in a way that not a lot of people would have thought of. As a result, when you read his poems, you may not necessarily know what he is going to say next or what angle he is going to approach a situation from.

If Walt was a personality type, he would be a commander. He is able to lead the way in exploring a new type of poetry that others during his time had not thought of before.

If Walt was a demeanor, he would be welcoming. Whitman is open to people talking to him and he will also try to have a conversation with who he is talking to. “Stranger, if you passing meet me and desire to speak to me, why should you not speak to me? And why should I not speak to you?”

If Walt was an American holiday, he would be Independence Day. Whitman has a strong sense of patriotism for America. “The United States themselves are essentially the greatest poem.”

If Walt was a music genre, he would be classical. He is a poet who starts out with a theme in a poem and is able to approach it from different angles without detracting from the true purpose of the poem.

If Walt was a phrase, he would be ‘appreciative of nature’. “After you have exhausted what there is in business, politics, conviviality, and so on – have found that none of these finally satisfy, or permanently wear – what remains? Nature remains.”