Sorry it’s been a while since I’ve posted anything. There have been many moments of hustling over the time that I have been away. I’m about to take my exams in just a few days and I’m spending all my available time getting ready for them.
This year has been a varied mix of a sluggish scrape and a speeding bullet train, with some days feeling more of one way than another. During this year, I have been seriously reflecting on the concept of time. What to do with it, how fast or slow it travels, memories of the past, and what time holds in the future. As I reflect over my life so far, I can honestly say that time has been a great asset to me. It has allowed me to meet different people, many of whom are very special to me, and I have also been able to experience a lot – be it good, bad, or difficult – which is valuable to me.
However, one of the things that terrifies me about time is the change that it brings along with it. When I am in an environment that I am truly enjoying, be it a visit with a friend, a trip to different parts of Kenya, or just being in school (yes, I did just say that), I don’t want these experiences to end. Over this past half year, I have had to say a lot of goodbyes and come to grips with the finality that it holds. I still haven’t come to grips with any of it. To be honest, I don’t like saying goodbye at all, so I try to avoid it by instead saying “See you later”, even though there is probably no chance I will see that person or place ever again. Sometimes, I even start to cry when I realise that fact.
I honestly don’t know whether to be afraid or happy about time. With it brings new experiences, yes, but also with that comes changes that can be big and frightening. Some things that I have tried to do to keep as many memories as I can is to keep a file of anything important to me and I have promised myself that I will carry that file with me wherever I go to remember the past and never forget what time has been able to grant me, even if it is in fleeting moments.
If I were to offer one piece of advice to you, dear reader, it would be to treasure every waking second of the day. Even though it may be a bad day, treasure it, because you may never be with the people around you when you have those days ever again. Spend time with those you love, because time may come when you or them have to move away. When that time happens, don’t cram in time to be with them a week or two before they leave. Build up your memories with them every day and make the moments special.
Never forget where you came from.
Treasure every moment, for there will never be another one like it.